upon second review, in june of 2010, I have decided that this post was mis-informed and meaningless.
most of the "intellectual insights" I seem to have are just exercises in sophisticated vocabulary and magically fallacious reasoning.
From now on, I'm going to use this blog to post my deepest, darkest, most secretive thoughts and feelings. I'll consider it the psychic sandbox where the dark, intuitive, nihilist elements of my self can be expressed, thrown around, and rearranged into a meaningful construction, without having to worry at all about anyone else reading or judging them. (Perhaps this is my first expression of nihilistic tendencies, the assumption that the project I am setting out to tackle is utterly meaningless to society and the universe, writ large.
Intriguing though, that it seems to be important enough to me that I would actually undertake such an effort (god I hate my pedantic, overly formal tone right now, but I can't help it, it's been too long since I wrote anything that engaged the truest elements of my personaluity, so i must wear this thick stylistic veil for the time being, hoping that I will eventually shed the layers and face myself in the mirror and see the true color of my own two eyes.)
